"what these years have brought me
what these years have taught me:
heardache and fame,
a chance to change,
a hope to be stronger,
that beauty can smolder,
a stage and a curtain,
that nothing's for certain.
all these years have been hard on my bones..."

at this point in my life right now, i can truly say that although there are lots of problems goin on right now around me, i am no longer scared of anything nor hiding anything. everything's out in the open. i don't have to hide behind anything, and i can really see god's awesome presence in my life. time and time again god proved to me this past week that he really is workin in my life... trying to make me stronger, more mature, and giving me more faith in Him. it's truly amazing.

with the outreach coming up, i have to say that i feel like we're quite ready. there's lotsa prayer goin around right now, and i feel as if we're focused on the right things, which is awesome. we're gettin lots of help, and from listening around, i feel as if lots of people are goin to be showing up. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME.

so things in life right now are kinda shaky. lotsa problems springing up from all different places- testing me and making me a lil stronger each time. as i said before, i'm not hiding anything from anyone, therefore, i'm really starting to stop caring as much about what people think about my circumstances right now. everyone knows the truth about everything..so if they dont' believe me, then that's their problem...

so yeah! urm.... fashion show is this week. EXCITED MAN!!! going to go pick out my two outfits on tuesday with my mama..

and I GOT A BODY PILLOW. horray for that.

"...what this god has brought me
what this god has taught me:
passion and grace,
how to stand in one's space,
laughing and lillies,
what truly fulfills me,
death on a cross,
it was i that was lost.
oh this god has been life to these bones." Kendall Payne - Bones