"am i not pretty enough
is my heart too broken
do i cry too much
am i too outspoken

don't make u laugh
should i try it harder
why do u see right through me

i live, i breathe
i let it rain on me
i sleep, i wake
i try hard not to break

i pray, i love
i've waited long enough
i've tried as hard as i can" Kasey Chambers

i'm goin through a moment.... a moment where i am very confused with my emotions and the way i am feelin right now. things should not be like this. *Sigh* i'm not relaly sure whether or no to be happy or to be completely upset with myself that .. i'm like this. oh goodness...

so there IS a car on my driveway right now. it's probably the biggest temptation every to have to just look at it. i was sittin in it today for about half an hour... just sittin... i turned on the engine... it was ALL GOOD. all i had to do was drive out of my driveway and i'd be GONE!!!!!!!! gone... i want to be gone. gone fromthis place. gone to maybe.. ellen's house. heh, i'mgonna run away to ellen's house =P

i was in a realy bad mood today. i'm not sure why. but yeah, i was stoopid enough to forget to get Nat's CD from phil.... dang, i'm so careless....

ok i'mgoni to go....... *d&C* aish!