"i've been crushed like paper
i've been washed like rain
i've been scared of sleeping
in case i wake up the same

i've been broken and battered
i've been lost in my home
i've been crying a river
i've been cold as a stone

falling into you
it carries me far enough away
and everything you do, it widens up my darker side of day
i just hope that the wind doesn't blow u away.

i've been left unattended
i've been thrown like a ball
i've been lulled with the punches
i didn't feel a thing at all

i've been crossed by the waters
i've been blinded by the light
i've been burned by the fire
i've been kept out of sight" Kasey Chambers "Falling into you"

yeah... so i feel as if i've changed. i don't know what happened, but tonite at church made me realize i REALLY changed... and that it is urgent for me to return to my normal self before... all of me is gone. i don't know, it's not a bad thing that's happened, but i just want things back to the way they were. who knows. i'm so confused right now. ??

APs are FINALLY over. hehe, the best feeling of today: when shane turned around when we both finished around the same time and smiled at me... and without one word, we both kinda acknowledged the fact that even tho we probyl did poorly, it was OVER. ahhhh. so carefree!!! feels quite awesome. now i feel so empty.. not having anything to worry about.

oh yeah, i've developed a bad habit of crackin my knuckles. it sucks.... my fingers are mutated enough from art this year, and now my knuckles are gonna get deformed. hippoo!!

yeah, i feel like i can't develop a full thought. i'm so tired.

till tomorrow, ta ta. off to bed i go. LONG BRANCH AND PAINTING HANGING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!