i want a dog named bear! ellen has one, i want one too! haha, =P S.H.A was good... i think. actually i have no opinion on it for some reason.... i think it was good? or it wasn't? ack, who knows! =P i think matt liked it more than i did, gurly guy =P

dr. pulen, my english teacher, gave us a HUGE list of stories we needed to read with the dates due for each story, and everyone in our class forgot except for sophia but i think we played it off pretty well. i actually thought today's class was fun. it was challenging to answer her questions and think on our feet w/o readin the story. i think i actually contributed the most today than any other day i've spent in english this year. it was fun... yeah... i bet all the people readin this that are in my english class are shakin their head at me... but it was fun. i like things like that. i would/should like to join a book club someday. i'm serious

mike (lee) told me that at his first day at Cornell, they were discussing some story and that it was the most intellectual conversatiosn he's ever had, and i was actually excited for college after he told me that. i really can't wait till college, if i could only get these stoopid apps out. i'm determined to finish my essays by saturday so i can just go and party my butt off at the wedding (my first weddin ever!).

i'm actually realy busy this week. i might not go to felly on friday nite so i can get this done and over with. i honestly just want to get this done. i dont' care if i have no life this week..... college apps are sickening. they're scattered around my room and i'm tired of pickin them up and ... puttin them back down =)

starting to see what realy matters. i guess the fact that college is comin up so soon makes me re-evaluate who/what i'm spending my time on. i need to refocus. i'm actually quite content in the way God is leading me right now... despite a few things that are missing, God's keeping me strong. i have a lot of things to say, but no one to say it too... or just, i dot' know how to express it anymore. i'm scared to be rejected... or just looked down upon. i need the strength to do something.... pray for me guys =T