[school spirited]
yesterday i did so much for skewl =P haha, not really.. but that is the extent of me helping out for our class. it was a lot of fun... being on the float, goin to the game, helpin out at the dance, and then sleepover at sofia's. it was a painful day, but all worth it at nite =) got to talk to a lot of people i usualyl wouldnt' relaly otherwise talk to. saw RASHON YARBROUGH! that was so weird. i haven't seen him since 6th grade. weird that i even recognized who he was!!! tried so hard afterwards to look for him cuz i wanted to say a quick hi and see how he was doin but people apparently disappear nowadays. =P

[my eyes! gauge them out!]
the things people were wearin for senior4sale was .... undescribable. not sure if i should post the pics up cuz they might need screening. or else go under the category of "porn" =P hehe, jk jk. it was so awesome tho. man, i think all the groups had at least one person dressed up as a female. matt did it the best i have to admit.. which was why i was so freakin scared to go up to him. he looked to pretty a gurl for me to go up and talk to him. hah, it was realyl awesome tho. takes a lot of guts and man power to be able to do a thing like that. yeah, matt's the man =P i have to admit tho.. the first time i saw him and a few people, i was so shocked/appalled that i dind't really know what to say... =)

[in the city]
watched too many episodes of sex in the city last nite with sofia's sister andher friends. they were awesome/addictive. and now, although i want to watch more, i can't, because i need to get these stoopid essays/college apps sent out (hopefully tomrorw). ellen is right, it's kind of like bridget jones diary- a book that i absolutely love. good times. there was this one episode tho.. totally disturbing. it was funny watchin neelam and her 22 year old friends freakin out. they're a kewl bunch of girls. haha, so dramatic.

[sleep(less) nite]
never had to struggle so much to sleep. we all went to sleep considerably early last nite but i just couldn't seem to get into some hard-core sleeping. was frustrating/distracting. feeling the effects of it right now (christina, eric, and paige saw me during church. they said i looked like crpa. thanks guys! =) )

[la la la laa...lee.lle li ljjj blah]
i was lucky i got through singing on friday and had to sing again this morning! it was so bad cuz i realyl honestly did not have a voice. i coudl actually feel my voice dying as i was singing. i think some people in the first row heard my voice crack. heeh, it was funny. but today's worship was really really good. everyone was into it and it was a needed time for me. thinkin i should baby my voice a lil until it gets better.

[one month]
i love thoguhtful people. i wish i was one of them. eileen happens to be one of the most thoughtful peopel i know. we have this thing where we say we're courting each other.. and it' sbeen goin on for a while, and today i was in the biggest hurry to go home (to sleep) and as i'm pullin out, she hands me a cd and card. and it was to celebrate our one month. it was the kewlest thing!! =) it made me so unbearably happy. the car ride home was deadly because i was so out of it, but i think the cd really was an energy booster and when i got home i read the card and cried. it was so touching!!! eileen!! =) thank u. i need to be more thoughtful... or not even MORE.. i need to be thoughtful. my creativity has reached an all-new low. woohoo for lowness.

["i've been down on my insecurities" -superchic[k]]
have been very insecure lately abotu a lot of things and realized i was so dumb for being that way. relatoinships, my future, the way my life was going... now that i look back on it i see how foolish i was for being the way i was. it's basically sayin that i don't trust the people i'm around, what god's plans for my future are, and what He has already done, and it shouldn't be that way. i have the most awesome people around me right now. a freakishly awesome boyfriend, a SUPER best friend, kewlbean family, and "superfriends" (as huntress would say from Birds of Prey) that are always around me. and as for God, he's lead me so far and has done so many amazing things in my life already that it's just unfaithful of me to be insecure. really hope i'll stop being this way and just be glad for what's goin on in life and wat i have around me.. .feelin realyl sappy right now. will stop =)