[lost my personality]
these past 3 days have been emotionally draining. not fun... i think i spent most of it either thinkin about 'the issue" or crying about it. ugh, i was hoping that today would kind amake or break me but today.. things were just left DANGLING.... it's so hard... things are so hard.. why does it have to be like this... i need a shoulder.. and a big hug.

[scarves/gloves]
eileen and i went to buy scarves and gloves today. we were workin under VERY VERY limited time but i thinkwe're both happy w/what we got =) yay. haha, afterwards, we went to meet up w/everyone else for leesh's surprise party... and as we were walkin towards his house (We parked our cars on another street) we see this car comin towards us, and we thought it was leesh's car, so we RAN towards this big TREE and tried hiding behidn it. how dumb we probly looked=P oh, we also had a moment. i'm convinced that we btoh woulda started crying if it wasn't for the fact that i was scared that the neighbors would take out a gun and shoot us cuz apparently we scared the neighbors.

[comfort]
saw ellen today =) we kept on randomly huggin each other... and.. smellin each other's hair.... or like.. lookin at each other. hehe, it was good to see her again and be w/her. =T sucks that we're both so busy. hoping busyness would stop soon.. but i think not =(

[e-mail]
i'm goin to have my laptop on me. if i don't get e-mails/phone calls/comments, i will be very upset. i knwo that i will be homesick the second i leave the airport... please comfort me =) how am i goin to survive college. blargh