"sometimes we love someone so much
that we have to be numb to it
cuz if we felt how much we actually do
it'd kill us"
- Riding in Cars with Boys

[warm fuzzy feeling]
despite the fact that i am recovering from a stomach virus and am FREEZING my butt off, i'm very happy right now =) i know i profuously say this but i'm so lucky to have such awesome people around me. people who care about the stoopid things/stories that i have to say and people that make me feel special by allowing me to love them. they say that the best feeling in the world is to be loved.. but.. i have to disagree. although being loved is realyl important, i feel that "to love" is so much more rewarding. seeing the impact u make on other people and the joy u bring to their lives and to hopefully see it reciprocated is real joy. for instance, on the trip to richmond last summer, the kids there were so in need of love because they didn't get it enough at home (due to broken families, rough living conditions...) and the fact that they drawn to us and really wanted us to love them made me so happy and even more willing to serve them and just put my arms around them and try to fill that hole in their hearts. the experience was far more rewarding for me than it was for them, i think. and like now, with my friends, it's so great to know that even tho they know me really well, they're not turned away by me, but rather they come to me when in need of something. "the greatest thing u'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." -moulin rouge (Guess why "to love" is put first =P)