[special thanks to weigy]
i'm really lucky to have such awesome people around me... REALLY REALLY blessed to have all these people who care for me. yesterday, evan was helping me cut 100 index cards in half, while leslie was helping me pick out a christmas present =P, and weigand scanned and was typing up my application for A&D UIUC. i have to give weigy a lot of thanks cuz.. man.. he did everythign for me. he took really good pics of my pieces with special slide film, put together and organized my slides, helped me label them, scanned in my apps, typed out my app, printed my app, gave me slide sheets to put my slides in, ack.. man =)

[what if...]
woah, it's weird when u think "Wat if's". a lot has changed over the summer and this skewl year. comparing it with junior yaer, things are drastically different. i think i've changed a bit too. for better and for worse. i was lookin through my old notebooks today after skewl and i was kinda shocked/surprised at what i saw. thelil notes i wrote myself or to others, the things i drew, .. it's so weird. i just read my diary from freshman year and at one point i was like "who's _____" apparently i liked him freshman year andnow i have no clue who he is! and there are so many things that have happened that i can't recall. bad memory i have. it's just weird. the ppl i'm friends with right now.. i woulda never imagined to be friends with them.. ahh, i'm happy with the way things are =) although some things have changed.. become worse.. i'm overall very happy =)

[winter break]
college poeple comin home next week!! =) so excited but also kinda skeptical of whta's goin to happen. i don't want to think of parts of thankgiving break cuz that'll jsut piss me off and i hope it won't repeat winter break. but watever, ... if the same thing does, i have to live to forget about it and move on. concentrate on other things i guess. =T realyl hate that i have to do that tho. so excited for ski trip. want to ski/board.... NOW. dont' be surprised if i start puttin on my ski suit, ski goggles, gloves, and big poofy jacket and just sit there for the next couple of days... i did it last year.. i did it when prom was comin up with my dress sophomore year. it is inevitable. i'm excited!! >.<

[i feel like]
ahhh, i needa get out and.. i dont' know. think. realyl needa blast some loud music and go driving with windows down. too bad i keep gettin chills and it's so poopin cold outside. poo. ack, got ltosa stuff to do. cna't think abotu what i feel like doing.. must focus =P