[just a case of the "terrible week" syndrom]
this week has been terrible so far, and it's only tuesday. we're currently reading a novel called "a portrait of a young artist as a man" by james joyce and i found myself sympathizing with the character. i am a byronic hero this week. haha, i'm stupid. yeah.. i've been extremely moody lately. crap just keeps coming up and things are fallin apart all over the place. i've got quite a few tests this week as well as a project due friday. oh heck, i wish i could just eat and eat forever and die in my fatness. heh, i've been gaining weight lately (don't roll ur eyes. i really have. i'm not sayin i'm HUGE but.. i'm gaining weight. that is a fact) and have been wanting to cut down on my food in take but it doesn't look like it's gonna happen. today, i went to A&P afterskewl and bought a bunch of junk food. it'd be great to die in a bed surrounded by fat and empty ice cream cartons... and a good friend nearby doing just the same =P (ellen, wanna take me up on this offer? christina? allison? steph? i know u'd all happily do this with me! )

[something to look forward to]
am SO EXCITED for this friday nite's outreach... it's the only thing that i am lookin forward to. although i did not do a lot for this production, eileen and i are releasing our first video together (Chauncy and Ty Productions) and i must say that it's realyl really good. i looked at the final video on saturday with all the boys and i almost started crying. whoever is gonna be there to watch it is in for a real treat. i am a lil anxious/scared cuz i don't know how people are going to respond to it. we might think it's awesome just because we made it.. but yeah.. a lot of important people are gonna be there.. please like it? hehe. ahhh

EVERYONE'S GONNA BE THERE!! people are comin home from college (tom, grace, JH, dan and his gf gail and a lot of their friends, Frances, Dave,..), people are coming from belle mead (nate, vivi, cindy, mel...!!!), people from NB and EB, people from Manalapan High School, ... i've been planning things since i'm stage manager and am basically responsible for the whole flow of the evening and i have to say that i am a bit scared. i know that the nite is gonna be awesome and that people have really high expectation of it.. so i hope i don't screw anything up. but it's seirosuly gonna be so fun. hah, i'm dancing in my chair typing this.

i'm gonna go eat a whole carton of mint chocolate chip ice cream in bed and then fall asleep. that's somewhat similar to what i mentioned above =P