[requiem for a dream]
so lately i've been having very weird dreams. not exactly sure why but i can't stop thinking about them.

one similarity between all the dreams is that in some point during the dream, shane appears and i scream his name

me: "SHANE!"
and he turns around and looks at me like this:

and says: "NIPPLES!!" (i think i've explained this name enough times for me NOT to have to explain it again. check past blogs for explanation if u don't know me well enough or long enough to understand)
and we hug

i guess i really miss shane. haha. it's just weird that i do'nt have these dreams about Nicole or Ellen or Eric or my family.... but SHANE!

gosh... i remember two years ago i went on missions w/these people from another church and this girl cindy told me that at nite, while i was sleeping, i kept saying "shane-y shane". *Shrug* maybe we're destined for each other.

haha JUST KIDDING MATT. don't worry.

[heavier things]
john mayer concert in 11 days! woohhoo. matt's superexcited.... more excited than me but i don' tunderstand why because he doesn't even know the songs =P.

i like his new cd. it's good chummy stuff. the songs are very thoughtful... the song "Daughter" (fathers be good to ur daughters. daughters will live like you do. girls become lovers that turn into mothers, so mothers be good to ur daughters too) is kinda patronizing towards parents but it's all good. BE GOOD TO UR DAUGHTERS. daughters are awesome. haha jk. my parents were very good to me. i don't complain a bit.

my fave song is probly "home life". good stuff doods.

"I can tell you this MUCH, I will marry just once
And if it doesn’t work out, I’ll give her half of my stuff
It’s fine with me
We said eternity
I will go to my grave, with the LOVE that I gave
Not just a melody line on a radio wave
It dissipates
And soon evaporates
Homelife doesn’t change "
-john mayer

[stupid boys]
boys are stupid,
throw rocks at them

[blood vessels]
so i hate it when i cry a lot at nite.. cuz i get these hickey-like things on my face. (rawr) so many people were able to tell that i've been crying. stinks man. but yeah, it feels good once in a while when u're frustrated abtou something (college) to just cry ur eyes out. i SO CAN'T WAIT TILL THANKSGIVING BREAK. nicole, craig, mo, and i have been talkin about it so much. when i see nicole i'm goin to cry my eyes out. i can't wait. WOOHOO!!! 25 days.

[epiphipiphany]
so i had an epiphany the other day while working. if someone moved from say... New Jersey to Illinois FOREVER (or anywhere else with a different time zone) and never moved anywhere else, they would gain an hour of life. so while everyone else has 8,760 hours per year, the person who moved would have had 8,761 hours. imagine how much greater it'd be if the time difference was great. say to taiwan. CRAZY! you're all probably think i'm stupid, cuz i am but i think it's amazing. but that would not EVER cause me to move here. i'd like to go back to NJ please. hehe. i don't need an extra hour. =)