warning: do not read on unless u have a lot of time and woudl like to hear me rant on and on about friends. and don't think u're leavin my blog w/o commenting either.


[nelly furtado second prize winner]
so about a month ago, i entered a sweepstakes hoping to in a 5 day 4 nite trip to europe and to see nelly furtado in concert. i never do these things, but i love nelly furtado so much and i just had to try. time passed and i eventually forgot about it, but today... i recieved an e-mail tellin me that i'm the second prize winner. wow. =) i never win. bingo--i suck! how do u suck at bingo? psch! but i can! anyway, so i won a nelly furtado prize pack. excited to go back to UIUC to see what's in it. haha, yay for nelly furtado. she's touring this year in the US. hoping to get some good seats to her concert!

[strong like bull]
so recently i've been going through some not-so-good stuff. on the surface, things are ok for now, but underneath...man. i think this is really a test of my character. i used to be a stronger person than this. i used to be independent.. i needed my space all the time. and now? i'm too dependent on people, and i'm too faithful on the love of other people. i talked to one friend today and he really helped me realize this. realize how strong i can be, and although it seems like right now, things are out of control for me... that i am still able to take control. and then i am also reminded that it's not up to me to control my life. i have time and time again forgotten about the strength of god, and to put things in His hand. luckily, i am reminded my those around me and the way they are handling tougher things in their lives. i am lucky to grow up in such a nourishing environment-- with friends that are always there for me to cry on their shoulders, others to listen to me, and even more friends to remind me about the purpose of life, and for my family to always be there to guide me. and what's greater than that is the opportunity to have people around me that trust me enough to do the same for them. i know that i am oftentimes melodramatic. i am probably being that right now. but i'm just glad that in the midst of all this frustration, confusion, sadness, and feeling hopeless, i am able to look around me and see what i've been blessed with.

[old friends]
so in tune w. what's goin on and me realizing what great people i have around me.. it's weird but i've also been talkin to a lot of people i haven't talked to in a while. heh..

x jon lee finally IMed me today after a lot of months of not speaking to each other, and although things are still very shaky and things are still not patched up at all, i'm glad that we are still able to go back and remember things that happened in the past--no matter how bad they were-- because we still have good memories to look back upon.

x i've also been talkin to brian chan a lot, which is fun as always. we also lose touch after not seeing each other for awhile, but sunday's swt16 did us good.

x AND i've also been able to talk to and have a blast with tiffany. we really went crazy sunday nite and seeing her and dancing with her, and enjoying each other's presence was AWESOMEEEE.

x tonite, i was also able to spend time w. sam. havne't talked to him since junior year but it was good catching up. listening to what he's been up to (jigga-WHAT?!!?) and also sharing what's been goin on in my life. it was good stuff. haha and then we watched finding nemo in his car with his new dvd player. crazy stuff. fun stuff.

[new friends]
so i do miss my friends back at college. i'm so lucky to have the 3 coolest people to be my suitemate/roomate and not seeing them for so long is kinda awkward after adjusting towards living with them--which is so much fun. nothing can compare to living in dorms.... and i dont' think anythign can compare to living in a suite either. yeah, people keep yellin at me for living in private housing... but i truly enjoy it. i enjoy sharing a bathroom with three other people, and fighting over it at nite. hehe. hooray for brad, sarah, and nathalie (no, i do not live w/a boy. brad's real name is sarah.. =P)

[still friends]
dave, eric, derk, ellen, steph, allie, franny, christine, paige, george and i will still always be crazy. the other nite we sat around playing boardgames. it was the greatest time in the world. while people out there smoke everything up and drink everythign under the sun... we play board games. haha. it was awesome. wah, i love ellen so much. i was foolish of not spending enough time w/her on thanksgiving but i'm so glad we've been able to see each other almost everyday lately. dangit. goshdarnit. MAN. flabeioskdj. ellen is mine. =P



so i call this post.. my sappy i-love-people post. ahhhh.