so i had a midterm and a test on monday and right now, i'm working on a self-portrait (that i probably will not post because it looks nothing like me =P), a wooden sculpture, and an animation. amongst all the craziness, i've been given a lot of time to think. contrary to life at home in NJ, i do not have a lot of friends here--which is ok with me cuz my friends back at home are enough for a whole lifetime =) --so with so much time to myself, i've been able to think a lot about college... about myself... and about stupid little things...

x i have matured a lot. although i am still very emotional about many things, i feel like my views on things have matured from HS to now. my mom told me the other night on the phone that statistics show that girls mature the most between their senior year in high school and their freshman year at college. i would have to say that it applies to me....which would probably be why i've been so hesitant w/the friends that i make here. i've learned a lot about trust in the past from mistakes that i've made with my family, especially to my parents, as well as many issues i've had with trusting other people in NJ. at least i'm guarding my heart now... some close friends of mine would say that i'm very fickle and that i'm overly-nice... i liked the nice part but i think i've learned that being nice doesn't mean i have to aggree with everything and accomodating everyone while trying to accomodate myself.. that makes life complicated. simplicity is good. i need simplicity.

x heh, this may sound very superficial.. but guys are very hard to trust. when you first meet them, they offer the best words... guys are good at talking. "HE CHEATED ON YOU? OH MY GOODNESS." or.... "don't ever walk home by urself... i will always walk you home. no matter what i'm doing. " pscccch.

x i miss my friends back at home... or.. from home AT college. i had lunch w/george last week which was awesome... and having lunch w/dan this thursday.. yay!!! maybe thursday can be the have-lunch-with-people-from-home day. that would be fun. yeah, i think paige and i are goin to go church hoppin and check out intervarsity church and campus crusade.

x so i've watched every episode of average joe (ok.. my guilty pleasure is reality tv shows... which.. are a lot of shows lately.. =P) and i was really excited to watch the season finale which was last nite because.. ok: i wanted the average joe (brian worth) to win.. because they always seem like the good guy on the show.. but on the other hand, i liked the "hunk" (gil) because he was really nice, not big-headed, and was not a mack... it was good and everything... up till the END. what the heck?! larissa's secret to gil, the guy she picked, was : i used to date fabio. ..... what?.... i dont' get it. and then he left her cuz of that.. i'm lost.

hah i'm crazy... and i miss my family a lot.